Last week, I submitted Emergence to beta readers. (*cue internal screaming*) It hasn’t actually been as terrifying as I thought… well, except for the first day. I could barely concentrate on anything as the typical writer’s insecurities came flooding in.
“What if nobody likes it?“
“What if I’m actually a terrible writer and I never knew it?”
“What if the story is just dumb and a fail and no one can connect with it?”
I didn’t want to doubt myself, but shucks, I’m too open-minded. I knew that technically, it was theoretically possible that all my months of grueling hard work could be for nothing… and I could have produced a sub-par, poorly written story that was beyond hope of redemption.
Gosh, we writers can be so dramatic sometimes.
To my profound relief, a few beta readers let me know how much they were enjoying it. They even commented that they appreciated the quality of the writing. Part of me felt pathetic for needing that affirmation… but then again, that need is universal to all creative people. There’s no shame in admitting I’m equally human.
As a side note: Never underestimate how far a compliment can go. We creative types are delicate and self-doubting creatures. One kind word can give us a flood of morale.
Of course, I didn’t send Emergence to beta readers just so I could feel good about myself. The purpose of beta reading is to get feedback for improving a manuscript. My readers still have a month and a half before they have to return their feedback forms, but already some of them have begun discussing improvements for the beginning.
And I’m loving it.
The insecurities flutter away when it comes time to evaluate a story. Like I said, I’m pretty open-minded, so I thoroughly enjoy picking apart what I’ve written and brainstorming how to make it better. I’m already excited about some changes I want to make for the next draft.
Speaking of feedback and questions… there are some questions YOU may have right now. And it’s about time I answered them.
Q: Why has this blog been inactive for a month?
A: I have one word for you:
Okay, yeah, I’ve kind of been busy?? As in, pretty-much-everything-in-my-life-has-been-on-hold-because-of-this-manuscript busy? And I feel so guilty because there are a lot of comments on this blog I haven’t responded to.
I WILL GET TO THEM. I promise.
Q: What’s the plan for this blog?
A: Okay, you probably aren’t actually wondering this, but here’s the answer anyway.
I have so many things I want to do with this blog. I have dozens of ideas for blog posts, three blog tags to catch up on, and a whole new (exciting!) direction I want to take it soon.
But I’ve been busy. (See answer to previous question.)
I’m trying to work out a blogging routine, and hopefully I’ll have structure in place soon.
Q: Is that the actual cover of the book?
A: What, you mean the feature image of this blog post? Um, no. This is just the very rough cover I made for beta readers. 🙂 The actual cover will be much more professional, but it will likely have a similar aesthetic.
Q: Can I creepily stalk your beta readers?
A: YES! Thank you for asking! On Twitter and Instagram, this book has an official hashtag: #EmergenceNovel. There you can see the excited flailing of an author and her readers. 🙂
If you have any other questions, I’d be glad to answer them in the comments below. Meanwhile, I have a day of creative work ahead of me, so I better get started. (Also, I have an army of dragons I need to feed. They get very cranky in the morning, especially when they’re hungry… *gulps* Yeah, I need to care of that right away…)
Have a lovely day, everyone! Brianna out.